By Sexual Correspondent Andrea (AJ) Plaid
I fucked up.
In my post about the transphobia stinking up the Mr. Cee/Brooke-Lynn Pinklady arrest, I referred to Brooke-Lynn as a trans woman. This I gathered from the reports and from how I was taught to recognize how the media tends to misgender trans women and other female-presenting people, complete with the public humilation of referring to their government names, vicious transmisogynistic slurs, and misuse of pronouns.
Come to find out that I was wrong. In this video (NSFW alert: language) that Bossip just released, Brooke-Lynn not only self-identifies but also discusses the arrest:
A transcript is under the cut.
Hi everybody this is Brooke-Lynn Pinklady. I’m sure by now everybody’s heard of me, and what supposedly happened. And I just wanted to set the record straight and let everybody know that nothing in deep happened in that car. Pretty much I feel like this is an internet blog that got totally out of hand, and a lot of things of things I’ve read are totally not true about me and my character. I can’t speak on his behalf. Basically, I’m not a transsexual, I’m a drag queen – I don’t do this all the time, I don’t dress like this all the time. Those of you who have seen my face (inaudible) probably know that. I feel like the media has this like, made me out to be this person, I feel like, just to get at him for some reason, make it a story, and that’s definitely not true. I’m definitely not a prostitute. I’m not in any way or shape or form easy – I don’t do things like that. I don’t have sex for money. I don’t need to have sex for money. I make enough money on my own.
Pretty much the situation I have right now is, I’m kind of trying to rebuild my life and try to get over the situation, you know, life goes on, and try to do bigger and better things, and not let this bring me down – all of the things that people are saying or doing. Basically – I don’t know, I’m not really upset. I was really devastated when I seen all the things that were online, I was really like, “who could do something like this?” I was really upset. I feel like people nowadays will do anything and everything for money. This whole thing was like, I feel, like a big-ass entertainment scheme. And I don’t understand why I was brought into it, just to be … The whole thing is just crazy to me. I decided to do a video in drag because … oh, ’cause everybody’s seen it, I didn’t see the need to do it every other way. Basically people are trying to make me into this infamous celebrity now. And although that would be nice, I would rather not be known for something I didn’t do. Or even if I was to do it, who wants to be known for something like that? It’s really not my thing. I did an interview and people are talking, wanting me to host parties, host events. And that would be nice and all that, but I don’t want to make this something to be proud of.
But like I said, none of these things that you’re reading are true. None of these fake-ass blogs are me, definitely. I don’t have a Twitter. Actually, I have a Twitter, but I don’t use it. But the little stupid-ass Twitters that you’re seeing, please don’t believe it, ’cause it’s not me. I don’t do shit like that. I don’t got time for infinite drama. I don’t got time for people on the internet that feel the need to run their mouths. It’s not my cup of tea. I don’t deal with shit like that. If you see me, say it to my fucking face, and that’s all I wanna say.
I don’t even know what else to say. I know one thing’s for sure: I’ve totally lost all respect for NYPD. That’s for damn sure. Like I said, I feel like people will do anything for money nowadays. Literally anything, and it’s just ridiculous. Who would wanna bring out somebody’s name just to make you happy, or make you rich. I realize that you have to live with yourself, and so do I so we’re not gonna deal with that … I kind of don’t know what else to say. I’m gonna reactivate my Facebook in a couple of days. I just wanted things to die out, ’cause I was getting so many adds, and it was just crazy. Everybody looking at me, asking me questions, men hitting me up, I was like, “Yeah.” Tomorrow I’m probably gonna make a Twitter of my own, and I’m not gonna reply to any of these little things that I’ve been hearing, ’cause like I said, it doesn’t matter to me what anybody on the outside thinks, ’cause at the end of the day, you don’t know me, and you never will know me. The only people that know me and how I am is the people that I’m close to – which is my family and my true friends. Throughout this experience, I feel like I’ve learned a lot. I’ve learned who I can trust and who I can’t. I found who my real friends were in a situation like this. Granted, I never thought anything like this would ever happen to me. The whole thing is just weird to me … but I want it to be gone.
The whole thing needs to stop now, and people need to move on with their lives, ’cause really it’s none of anybody’s business what [inaudible] at the end of the day it’s really not … initially, when I made this video, I was gonna act like a complete faggot, or whatever you wanna call it – like a total, complete bitch. But … I don’t know, I just feel like I should be a bigger person about the situation. I don’t have the time to respond to ignorant-ass people who don’t know anything about me or who the situation is. Basically, my thing is, where I’m gonna leave it is, don’t believe everything that you hear, don’t believe everything that you read, because people exaggerate to get better stories. And, at the end of the day, if that’s what you think is gonna make your pockets fatter, do you. But just know when you do things like that and write shit about people that’s not true, it kinda shows what kind of person you are, that you sell yourself out for money, end of the day. I’m gonna move on with your life and just do the things I wanna do. I’m trying to sing, rap – all of these things that I wanna do, and I’m not gonna let anything deter me. Stupid shit like this is definitely not gonna affect me anymore. It’s crazy that I even have the strength to do this video … This is my first time even being at a computer in a few days – in a week, actually. I was just so not wanting to see the little bullshit on it … my privacy has been totally invaded, and I don’t know how I feel about the Internet anymore. This kind of scarred me, I feel like. Anyway, to those that know me, love you. Shout out to Pinklady. Shout out to all my friends that helped me through this – I couldn’t have done it without you, and family. Hopefully you’ll be seeing me in the future – there’ll be good things coming out of it, and not bullshit … Bye!
So, on behalf of myself and for Racialicious, I deeply apologize to you, Brooke-Lynn–and to anyone else I upset–for my own misgendering and for any other hurt I caused with not respecting how you self-identify.