Interview with The Perverted Negress
Mo: I have a very high capacity for empathy. Which is great! However. It doesn’t discriminate. I can empathize with MANY types of people, even those some would consider evil, [l]ike sadists. SO I can explore that in the relatively safe corral of BDSM, and see how it is to be aroused by the pain of others.
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Mo: The idea that someone might hate you PURELY because of your identity is horrific. [I]t dehumanizes you, and it makes you “less than.” So, in the context of BDSM, it is fair game for that type of play.
Andrea: And words like “normal”–as in “normal” sex, which some folks wouldn’t consider BDSM and race play–get employed to convey “good.”
Mo: Right. If you do that “kinky shit” you CANNOT, by definition, be mentally sound. Or you have some agenda.
Andrea: Like not uplifting The Race! (Insert PoC group here)
Mo: Yeah.
My vagina isn’t really interested in uplifting the race. What pussy wants is fucked up stuff, really dark scenarios that test the boundaries and cut with an exhilarating level of danger. Stepping razor dangerous, like the song goes.
Andrea: Next question: how is race play similar and different from BDSM? If it is any different?
Mo: It isn’t different from BDSM, it is an aspect of BDSM. It can encompass many different aspects. Obviously, role-playing comes to mind. In the same way that a pair of 6″ stilettos and a pair of flip flops are both shoes, race play and a spanking, for example, can all be aspects of BDSM. But different types of people are going to find either one sexier. The vast majority of kinky people would never admit to dong racially based play or fantasizing about it because of the PC thing. My thinking is this: in the same way pendulums have to swing to reach equilibrium, the BDSM community has to breathe around this aspect of Kink.
And as to those who are non-kink identified….it is even more challenging. They have a double hurdle: “Grokking” kink at ALL, then groking one of the MOST controversial types of play.
Andrea: That gets read on the outside of the communities that white folks want to re-enact slavery again and BDSM may be that vehicle. Ergo, “keep BDSM away!”
Mo: Yeah, because kink is a gateway drug for racism. Please.
Andrea: What I’m running into is people want to do those things and use 1)white folks, 2) the ancestors, and 3) the [children] as their reasoning to not even think about the issue.
Mo: Most “white folks” (meaningless term, blah blah) are more uncomfortable around this than you know. And I have spoken with the ancestors. They are delighted that I can fucking choose to do this for a few bloody hours. I can go into the Big Ass Ice Cream Parlor of Racism and have a sample spoon, and leave. I’m not trapped there being force fed the Rocky Road Ice Cream of Oppression until I am sick. It is all about choice.
Andrea: And consent.
Mo: I hope people fucking get that. Understand this one thing and then you’ll be well on the pathway.
Look, I have never lived in the South on a plantation and felt the terror of my life every moment at the hands and whims of an owner or of another slave with an agenda. However, I can pretend. And, in a very real emotional sense, I have tasted what that is like. It is a screaming band of pain that still resonates in this country, on this fucking planet, you know. But it is just under the radar. I can hear it when I play there. I experience it. It is a terror that I can’t completely understand. But one thing I learned in this play: resistance is harder than it looks.
Andrea: Then the question comes back: “But *why* would you want to do that? Can’t you just look at lynching picture and get the damn point?” (I’m being facetious…and to some folks, quite blasphemous. But I’m going there….)
Mo: Why is because I live viscerally. I obtain a profound benefit to living the reality as deeply as I can emotionally. In the race play scenes I have done that involved black / white dynamics, do you know what the scariest thing was? That I ultimately gave up. I am NOT of the resistant blood. I’m a quitter. I was afraid, I gave in. That is a lot to have about your nature revealed.
Andrea: What did it reveal?
Mo: That I am, at heart, obedient. Even in a scene where I had disassociated and genuinely feared for my life, I gave up. I’m genuinely, at the core, submissive in a way I am certain does not translate to my present-day self! I hoped it would be quick and over fast.
Andrea: Obedient…to whom?
Mo: Obedient to authority.
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